Bah Humbug

Can we just fast forward thru Christmas this year? I don't want to go there. I'm too busy, and sick, and sad to mess with it. How is THAT for pathetic? I seem to be stuck in a pity party that I can't find my way out of. Ugh. The songs are so depressing to me this year. The Ross clan loves Christmas. It's about giving, and family, and lots and lots of food. All of that will still be here this year. But Robert won't. And I hate the thought of watching the kids go through it without him. I know, I have to do it for them. I have to go to the tree farm and cut down a tree. And drag boxes of glittery junk out of the garage attic. And play the songs that are so sad to me. I know that I'm lucky to have family here, and good friends, and healthy kids....I know, I know. This phase will pass and I'll be embarrassed to have written this. But for now, I'm going thru the motions.